Lately, I’ve had somewhat of a feeling of stress. I couldn’t quite pin down where it was coming from. My job wasn’t really stressing me out, I wasn’t fighting with anyone and I didn’t have much financial worry. Then I received multiple text messages at the same time from various people asking me if I had seen their previous texts, followed by a phone call from a number I didn’t know. I realized that the feeling of always having to be “available”, even when I don’t really want to be, was what was stressing me out. The nagging feeling of reminding yourself that you have to reply to someone, no matter how mundane the conversation. There is always this bleeping device attached to us wherever we go, reminding us that we can’t “just be”. We have a field across from my work that I’ve often gazed at as I drive past, wishing I was just lying there on the grass, observing nature without a care in the world.
Yesterday, I woke up early to drop Nick off at the T on my way to work. Afterwards, I got coffee, grabbed the paper (because I’m old-fashioned and like the physical thing) and headed to work. As I was about to pull into the parking lot, I passed the field. I realized I still had a bit of time. I felt a longing to sit out there with my coffee and enjoy the morning if only for a short while. There was a chill in the air, and it felt like fall. I sat right in the grass, under the shade of an old tree. I listened to nothing but the birds chirping. I witnessed the sun break through the clouds, and illuminate the trees with a halo of light. It was like a painting. Without trying to sound like a hypocrite, I DID pull out my phone to capture a couple pictures. It was just too gorgeous!
As the sun took over the field, I felt its warmth enveloping me like a hug. I couldn’t remember the last time I had this feeling, but it satisfied my soul for the entire day. Even when I had to snap back to reality (I know, cue the Eminem song..) I felt a true sense of happiness that I had taken time for just myself and nature. It reminded me that while we rush about our daily lives with our phones, computers, calls and agendas, we are still connected to this planet on the most important level, spiritually. We should always take time while we can to stop and enjoy the calming beauty that surrounds us on a daily basis. Although it looks great on Instagram, it’s a real masterpiece in person.